Total Freak Out Day

Today I am totally freaking out. It’s bad when I can’t even think straight. I am so stressed right now with no income. But, I am trying to focus enough to get stuff done. I finished a scarf for myself. I forgot to time myself to see how long it takes to make one. I have an appointment today for the tobacco seminar. I also have a coffee meet with a couple of ladies in town.

I am trying to stay calm but it just isn’t working. I am stressed to the max this week and I have no idea what I am going to do. I am trying to plan ahead but the only thing I can think of is homelessness. It’s a horrible day when homelessness is looking like a viable option again.

My doctor was talking about putting me on medication to help with depression. I don’t need pills. I need income. I don’t want to be medicated. I want an actual plan that will make my life better. Pills cost money anyway. How the hell am I supposed to afford medication when I can’t even afford my electric bill? This is insane.