Abandoned Blog? I Don’t Think So!

I have not fallen off the planet, I just needed to take some much-needed time for quiet introspection. I was having a really hard time and I tried to get back into blogging and YouTube but it just wasn’t happening for me.

Those of you who know me in real life know that at the end of June I actually got a job! I was thrilled. I was on cloud nine. It looked like my life was taking the turn I needed. And then about two weeks later I was fired. I was devastated. 

I don’t know why I was fired and they didn’t have to tell me because it was during my probation period but, they said it wasn’t my performance. I did very well. I have some ideas of why but nothing that I can prove. I would love to know why because if it’s something I can fix, then maybe it will help me keep a job.

Not knowing why, I felt like I didn’t have a good direction to go. From a comment made during my firing, I know it’s something in my background. I spent time researching my background and ordered a full background check. Nothing. I am a good girl. All I can tell you from that background check is that I move a lot, have kids and a husband, own land in Tennessee, and no one can spell my name correctly. 

But for bettering myself? Yea, I have no idea. That is why I decided to check out from social media (except for family) and really take a good hard look at my life. Like, I really met it face to face. I finally believe the doctors (from years ago) who told me I would never work outside my home again.  I believe them now. I didn’t want to believe them before but I fully do now. 

I am never going to be able to hold a job outside of my house so I need to focus on what I do best. As much as that hurts to say, I accept that. I don’t have to like it to accept it. So I am accepting it.

And now I will focus on what I am best at… Writing. Because I am not letting this depression get the best of me! I set goals for this month to keep me focused.

I am back!

Goals for this month

My goals for this month are easy so I can get back into my groove.

  1. Each week I will make six posts.
  2. Each post will start with a letter of the alphabet. Nov 1 is A. Nov 2 is B. Nov 3 is C. And so on.
  3. All posts will be about positive things or will be about something that I am grateful for. 

I am hoping to get on YouTube video in each week but we’ll see how that goes for now. I am definitely working on this. 

I want to make it to where this is my full-time “job” so that I make it my habit.

I am looking forward to this. Since I won’t be getting a job… ever… I am back to blogging full-time! WOOHOO!

Last Month’s Goals

Last month with a little off since we headed to Tennessee for the ten year memorial for my dear friend and a family reunion. My cell phone plan messed up and I am still trying to get Straight Talk to add my second card. 

It’s been a crazy month! And my youngest son turned 18 yesterday. He won’t let me post a picture of him.instead, here is a picture of me last night!

Don’t worry! That’s just honey with food dye dripping down my kitchen knife. Yes. That is my kitchen knife.

Onto Goals!

October Goals – How did I do?

Well, I didn’t do horrible. I did post a bit more on my instagram account though. 

Long Term Goals

Finish book draft: This is going better than planned and I am using NaNoWriMo to help propel it forward.

Get rid of most of my stuff: Still working on it. 

Start Video Blogging: Well, it is a LONG term goal, right?

Short Term Goals

Post 3 times a week plus one Sunday post. I think I managed three times a week. Traveling made this a little harder. I’ll give myself a C on this one.

Write something every day: I did this! I really did this! A+

Write two posts about something important: my two posts were merged into one very long, very emotional post. I am giving myself an A on this.

Restart the photography course: I took pictures? Meh, I couldn’t do this one because of the cell phone issue. So I am making it a long term goal. But as a short term goal? I failed.

Crochet 1 or 2 projects a week. This would have worked out but I forgot yarn. I won’t grade this one because I suspended it when I realized it.

Next post today will be my new monthly goals! What are your goals?

I Dropped My Computer

Every time I get into writing, something happens. Either the entire card with all my writing disappears, or my computer dies (or the tablet or the phone), or something.

This time, I bought a book off Amazon because I had credit and thought that would make a nice birthday present to me.

I started the book. It’s good! I really like it. That’s another post though. I am actually making progress! And then… I dropped my damned computer!

The screen is messed up now.

The back isn’t supposed to have green on it. Here is another to better explain.

All that green should be black and there are lines running down the screen.

That’s what it looks like. So, it is usable but really messed up. I cant really see what I am typing in MS Word because of the lines. I am so upset.

I am taking this as a sign that I am not meant to be a writer. I give up. I’ll stick to blogging and, hopefully soon, vlogging.

I am gonna take a nap.